BENI

So, I just found this BENI guy. He is a vlogger..

I saw his vlog because he was sharing a story of Malaysia and Malaysians..

How he make the video is awesome. Until u cant believe the setting is actually in Malaysia. But yeah, he was lucky because, the Malaysian friends he has on his vlog are the famous one. So that what makes them worth to watch..

I wonder how long he have been done this vlogging thing until now, because his videos are all mesmerizing

Please watch him

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4w87hy0xlGd_GXbXrLOaIA
Click here

exactly 24 years ago..

so, yeah. today, exactly 24 years ago my mother gave birth to me. I'm the youngest, so I barely missed the celebration for my birthday.

but this time it is different. my mom is so excited. she even built the 'birthday cake' for me by herself. well, yeah. she staked the kueh lapis from Hari Raya left over and turn in into a so called 'birthday cake' :)

all praises for Him, Who makes today so meaningful.

and yeah, we have a morning walk in Tanjung Batu with armando this morning. Syukri and Syukor is so excited. and recently, Syukor just found out why his name is Syukor Muzaffar. can you guess??

the most unique 24th birthday celebration. a staked kek lapis, cokes and ayam gorengs..

Kerja

Sekarang baru dapat kerja. Lepas grade, sakit, down, molah bisnes. Sekarang baru bekerja.

Kerja sebab terpaksa. Sekda orang lain gik nak tolong jadi cikgu di sekolah ya. Nang sik ikhlas. Curse myself. I hate myself for this. I hate people around me. I hate this life for putting me at this place..

I always thought I'm going 'to die' soon doing this job. jadi cikgu is so stressful. And hyperactive 'kids' in class is a chaos. Again, I hate this life...

It's been 4 weeks now. Everything seems fine. The stress was there, but no depress. I feel calmer now. The sik ikhlas feeling slowly fades away.

All this while, thinking about hating myself and this life adalah tanda-tanda orang sik bersyukur. Dan orang yang sik bersyukur, nya sikkan bahagia.

Alhamdulillah is all I can say. Its not enough la. Im trying to pay all the luxury He gave to me, by helping to teach those future leader (the students) even though rasa sik ikhlas. Kita sik tauk nak bila kita ikhlas? Ne tauk tengah kita mok ikhlaskan hati ya, nok ya lah Allah terima sebagai keikhlasan.

Boh pike gilak bah. Just do it. If thinking about the future make you depress Ika. Just do not think about it at all. Just do anything good right now. Others may can plan and feel passionate about their goal. But you are not that type. Chill and be like Jack and Finn Harries and their friends. Inspiring young volunteers..

** this is a letter to myself. So..