Try to understand

As a youth, I found that, we always feel depressed about small things. We always do something wrong. And we always act foolishly.

I don't know where to start, but I have always wanted a normal life, A happy life. A life that I always do things in the right way.

But then, again. That is the hardest thing to do.

I thought for a while. Maybe, it is because we are still young and foolish. We don't know things as much as the elders. There is still many things we have to learn to make things right. We have to experience more things so that we can understand the world better.

I always can't mingle with my friends because I found they are loud and annoying to me. I hate people who speak loud as if they wanted the whole world to know what they are saying. And I hate the situation when there is too much foolish jokes around. But, it's just the way they are. Maybe it was because their family just talk like that. Maybe they are too stressed at the moment, and they are making funny jokes to forget their problems.

Oh, I have to learn more about people behaviour so that I can understand people better.

Can I????

People's Opinion

Young people nowdays just don't care about everybody else. All they care is about themselves. It isn't a surprise that no one care about us because we never care about others.

They always say things that hurt someone else, but they don't realise they did the same!

They just throw everything on facebook, twitter or wechat like they own this world, like they are the boss, like they have no parents to be shame of with their words. Well, I too have an opinion, but writing em' on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram or whatever else is just too mainstream now. People just judge us by our social media account. And I'm afraid of that. So it is safer to throw everything here because my words here will be read by those who just want to read it.

Facebook or twitter just full of negative tweet bout life and I don't want to burden everyone else with my silly thought. LOL. Be matured lah people.

Finally- WIFI

Right now, I'm in my 7th semester in Islamic Law in Bussiness. It's kinda cool actually. So, it means that I'm in my fourth year here in Indonesia.

So, for this semester, I only got 3 classes a week. And, you know what? I feel miserable because of that. Because my life-routine circle is disturbed. Yeah. I'm feeling soooo unproductive. As I'm not always outdoors, I'm feeling a bit weak and not energetic as always. And, I'm feeling like a useless person because my life is wasted most on the Instagram and Facebook. LOL

Then, about two weeks ago, I just subscribed wifi for myself in our home. So whoever wants to use it must pay me RP 500 for 2 hours. How cheap is that? I've been waiting to subscribe to wifi since the first semester when I was living with the seniors. But I just don't know how to get it and don't know which mobile network is the best for the area. Thanks God I got it now, and I'm feeling aliveeeeee...

It's been long that I haven't wrote anything in English this long. And it feels awesome to be able to write again with the fast network. Yay!

Setahun Gik

Tadik mak embak shopping meli barang pake balit Surabaya. Macam biasa, favourite place dekat mall. Tapi kali tok tek macam sebak sikit. Sik macam dolok-dolok. Apa yang aku maok kebanyakannya mak aku dapat beli, tapi kinek mak suh beli yang penting ajak.

Sebak rasa sebab aku rasa susahkan mak ajak. Bila nya dah hadkan perbelanjaan, it means that she had not enough money to buy what I want like she always do. Sedangkan belanja untuk aku gik terhad, apa gik untuk ny sendiri. Mesti banyak barang nya sikpat beli untuk dirik nya sebab nak tanggung belanja aku. Sebak abis. 

Mak aku dah tua juak bah. Boleh jadi pangkat nenek dah. Sepatutnya umur 60 an dh sik perlu kerja gik, goyang kaki jak di rumah. Yalah molah aku rasa sik mok sambung belajar dolok pastok sebab rasa sik sampe hati nangga mak bapak bekerja semata-mata mok tanggung kuliah aku. Makin sebak rasa mok tinggalkan Bintulu.. 

Setahun gik. You are stronger than you are..

Test Coba

Assalamualaikum. Alhamdulillah dah tukar handphone baru, boleh lah tulis blog pake handphone jak, sik payah bukak laptop gik. Hehehehe. Imma happy girl :)

Bintulu or Mini Heaven

I'm on my holiday now. Praise to God. Me is so happy :)

My holiday is only for one month this semester. At first, I don't plan to come back to Malaysia for this holiday because the flight tickets are so expensive. But, there is a slave of Allah who is so 'pemurah' is willing to sponsor half of my tickets price. Alhamdulillah. So, here I am.

I'm the only Malaysian who has practical this year because of the different courses that I took with those of my bacth.

Yeah, I'm just afraid though. I'm afraid if I will be too sad going back to Surabaya alone and go to Jombang right after. (myenglishisgettingsucks!)

Oh yeah, as I touched down to Bintulu, the feeling is Subhanallah! Indescribable. I wonder if this Bintulu or mini heaven? The expression is too much huh?!

i have no idea left what to write. ok bye. bbelit tgn ku nak type bhsa inggeris tok eh

Urang 1#

Kamek orang ada diajar sorang Pak Dosen (lecturer) tok. Mudak lalu umonya. Dalam 27 tahun macam ya. Baruk jak nikah n dapat anak umur 3 bulan. Nya cuma datang mengajar di universitas kamek orang pada hari Rabu jak. Nya tinggal 3 jam di luar kota Surabaya. Umo jak mudak, tapi nya selalu berik kamek orang kata-kata hikmah. Rupa nya nang sederhana lalu. Tapi tinggi n muka kedak matluthfi.

Aku nang tertunggu-tunggu setiap kali ada kelasnya. Oh lupak nak madah. Nya ajar kamek orang Kajian Kitab Hukum Bisnis Islam. So, kamek orang terpaksa mengkaji dan menterjemahkan kitab Fiqh Sunnah dalam bahasa Arab ke bahasa Indo yang tulisannya arabnya sekda baris. Lekakya, homework kamek orang adalah disuruh engkah baris kat tulisan Arab ya tek. Ne endak nyaman asa palak. Aku dah 3 sem sik belajar bahasa Arab. Nang lupak suma dah apa yang aku belajar dolok. Nasib ada geng yang pande. Aku nang tiru sidak jak.

Marek bes da jak. Kelas mula jam 1pm. Abis 2.40pm. Nya lom datang gik. Duhal macet (jammed) sebab nya nait bas ke Surabaya dari rumahnya. 20 minit gik mok abis kelas bok nya sampe. Tedah jak rupanya berpeluh-peluh. Tapi tetap semangat jak mok ngajar kmk orang. Tengah-tengah ngajar ya, ada jak kata-kata hikmah keluar dari mulut nya. Mun sik pun nya molah lawak.

Tapi marek nang best la kata-katanya. Lebih kurang cemtok bunyi nya:

Ada mahasiswa saya yang kejebak ISIS, lalu saya tanya, ngapain kamu ikut ISIS? Jawabnya, saya mau mati di jalan Allah pak. Terus saya bilang, kamu jangan mati di jalan Allah, tapi kamu harus hidup di jalan Allah.

Ada juga yang bilang, saya mau berjihad di Palestina. Terus ada yang tanya, kamu pernah kena salju? Dia bilang tidak. Dibilang sama dia, lebih baik kamu jangan ke sana, pilek (selsema) aja kamu nanti.

I thought it was so funny and cool. Aku harap nya masih ajar aku sem depan.